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Come here really quick... I want to share something with you all,

 

Last year, I hit a major wall with my motivation. While I managed to attend my vending events and stressfully juggle a pop-up shop solo (thanks to the relentless demands of the capitalist machine), my energy outside of work was nonexistent. I initially thought I was just feeling a bit down about the whole Seattle Restored ordeal, but as I dug deeper, I realized it wasn’t sadness at all—I was furious.

 

And here’s why: All the hard work I put into building that staircase felt utterly disrespected and useless because of truths that were kept from me. I was being gaslit by the property manager about the property's safety and by Seattle Restored about my “activation.” As a person of color, I felt targeted with no recourse. It was infuriating.

 

But here’s the kicker: expressing anger, especially as a person of color, can be seen as dangerous or unproductive. Society often teaches us to suppress our anger to avoid being labeled as the "scary" or "angry" black or brown person. So, I suppressed my anger and let myself feel sad instead, which seemed more socially acceptable.

 

Sound familiar? Many of us, especially people of color, live in a world where we’re constantly questioned, challenged, dismissed, and gaslit. From a young age, we’re taught that anger is not an option. But suppressing anger without a proper outlet can lead to emotional distress because our nervous system feels unprotected from future harm.

 

I’m not suggesting we go out and curse out everyone who irritates us, but finding safe, productive ways to express anger is crucial! For me, it was a tricky process that required time, experimentation, and practice. Every day is a small victory as I choose healthier ways to deal with my anger, reconnect with my purpose, and rediscover my motivation.

 

These days, I find myself getting upset less often because I deal with my anger in the moment instead of letting it build up and overwhelm me later.

 

So, here’s my question to you: What are some things you do to release uncomfortable emotions like anger, anxiety, and sadness? Let’s discuss and support each other in finding better ways to cope! 💪✨

 




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I feel so vulnerable 


Open and exposed


To afraid to not speak


To afraid to not go


This is where 


the watermelons grown


For if I do


What will they say


Yet careless if I may


I don't have to know the way


Moving towards the light


Accending everyday


Letting it guide me


Never letting fear rewind me


It propels me


And at times it overwhelms the


Yet I still find happiness 


Hope 


Love


Joy


In the mist of the storm


A new me is born


Brighter 


Lighter


And more aware than before 


Stronger


Wiser


Yearning for more


Reaching


Climbing


Knocking on freedoms door

By ~ Antoinette Hamilton




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Okay okay okay

But are you ok

Yesterday because you had to

Tomorrow because you need you

But what about today

I try, you say

Ok, But you need to today

You need there to be a way to be more than ok

For okay only gets us through the day

A pacifier, if I may

Temporarily providing a false sense of security

Never understanding

And always in the way

Mmmkay. -2 snapps and a circle

It's like a shield

Yet instead of blocking it absorbs

Till it's so heavy you can't hold it anymore

With it you drop to the floor

You are not okay

You can no longer bare what your load weigh

And don't you dare

It's not okay to share

Too many uninterested in walking in what you wear

So as you lay in the wade, waving your hands in dismay

They continue to pass by you, whispering

She's fine, she's okay

She made her bed

And that's where she shall lay

For if she is not okay it has nothing to do with me

Gaslighting is their specialty

So if their ok you should be okay too

Get the hell up, ain't nothing wrong with you

YOU ARE OKAY, they say

Because you are in But out of the way

So as you sink lower

They fly high

Never acknowledging they left you behind

And here, here is where you find self

You discover your minds wealth

You learn to be more than ok

You plant your feet

You ground yourself

You refuse to continue to wade

Before you know it your able to stand again

And when you do, you overstand

Now your heads above the cloud

Yet no need to look down.. on them

For all they know they are flying high

Not knowing above the clouds there is more sky

Once they realize they can't access your crown in which once they looked down

They ask if your okay

Your above it now


Kindred

Keen

And knowing!


By ~ Antoinette Hamilton









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